- While a transitional deacon waiting to be ordained to the priesthood, Jon Shelley caught the attention of counselors at a retreat center, who noted that he had trouble keeping proper boundaries with boys, and "wrestled" with some of them in a swimming pool.
- After being ordained, Fr. Shelley allowed an 18-year-old boy to live in the rectory with him at one point.
- Thousands of gay pornographic images were discovered on Shelley's computer in 2004, some apparently of boys.
- Search terms such as "free naked boy pictures" were found on Shelley's computer.
- When the archdiocese learned of these photos and search terms, they asked Shelley to turn his two other personal computers over to them. He refused, smashing one with a hammer.
- Shelley was sent to treatment, but kept in ministry. Psychologists at the treatment center filed an official report on him that states, "Ample evidence exists for the possibility that Father Shelley has an ongoing problem with compulsive sexual behavior in his Internet pornography use."
- Many years later, Archbishop Nienstadt was considering assigning Shelley as pastor. Nienstadt's chancellor for canonical affairs reviews Shelley's file and alerts Nienstadt, and even shows him images saved from Shelley's computer from eight years prior that were clearly child pornography. Nienstadt drags his feet on the matter for over a year.
- The chancellor alerts police. Police show up and request the CDs of the images. Chancery officials refuse to provide them immediately, stalling for 24 hours. They eventually provide some sort of CDs that contain no child porn. The investigator notes, "Whether these discs given to me were the actual discs or copies of those discs after first asking for them, I do not know nor will I most likely ever know,"
- Fr. Shelley - the aficionado of gay child porn - meanwhile, writes a pissy letter to - get this - Neil Diamond - complaining that Neil Diamond's guitarist had accused him (Fr. Shelley) of "indiscretions with young boys." Shelley is so upset that he threatens Neil Diamond that he'll never take his mother to a Neil Diamond concert again. [I am not making this up]
- When the "Delegate for a Safe Environment" views this letter, he comments that Shelley "did not incriminate himself."
The darkness is nothing new to me.
It sometimes lightens,
as if there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
But always, always it returns.
A tweak in the medicine here. A new way of thinking there.
A new way of facing God or dealing with spiritually.
Suicide is always knocking at my door
Beckoning me to experience relief
From the pain no one else can
I fight it.
Sometimes better than others.
The impulse to run is there.
Free from pain. But it will follow.
Why do I have the honor of this pain?
Is God calling me to something more
Of which I am unable to grasp?
I feel alone on an island.
Without human help.
Without godly help.
I just want to sleep. Forever.